i’m saved.
if i didn’t get into nyu, i honestly don’t know what would have happened.
i would have nothing to live for anymore..
is this a sign? a sign that maybe things will finally get better? a time when i can finally do what i want, have my own choices to make?
(via goldenfools)
hiding hiding hiding away
isolation once again
breaking promises, letting them down, closing off, thinking about this and that and sometimes nothing at all
don’t know what i’m preparing for, to dissappear? don’t know how many times i’ve been on this road, don’t know how much longer i can survive, don’t know how much i can take anymore.
i want to be happy, but the only way i can do that is considered selfish to others.
so how come it is not considered selfish to force one to exist for them?
i just want to be happy.
(Source: pixiv-artists, via narcosis)
i am tired of it.
no more missing people, no more looking back.
i am a cold hearted bitch.
either i leave people or people leave me. even the kitten.
thank god i learned my lesson throughout the years; i knew something like that was going to happen. thank god i did not get attached again. thank god i did not let him in my heart.
no more shedding tears, no more sorrow, no more pain.
no more saying goodbye.
no more relationships that will not last.
motivation is key.
when all else goes wrong, when nothing seems to work, the strength of that desire is the only thing that can lead me to achieve my goal.
despite the the risks, regardless of what my heart says, no matter what i know might happen, i must do it for myself.
if i want to be happy, to enjoy life like before, i will take my chances.
(via artpixie)
